Fear and Longing

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Two emotions are interrupting my relaxed, treatment-less Saturday morning.  It is brilliant here; the sunlight reflecting off the Seattle Times Building’s windows is lighting my room.  I am going to head out for a brisk walk to try to calm my mind.

I am scared of what is to come.  It is a new emotion.  I wasn’t overly fearful or anxious before my surgery (thankfully I was pretty unaware of what they were going to do or I would have been too frightened to show up at VGH), and I wasn’t worried starting treatment at ProCure, but I am scared thinking about my radiation at UWMC.  Why?  Continue reading